Sunday, July 11, 2004

hmmm, i think this is written for jess... sometimes, things may not turn out the way u expect it to be. and when that happens, u'll be shocked, and wondering why. and sometimes, u wish tt u can change the fact. but u noe u cant and u juz hav to accept the reality. at first, no one will noe if the expected outcome or the real outcome is better. n u keep thinking maybe if it hadnt been this way, things would be better.. maybe, maybe, maybe... but u only will noe if u give reality a chance to prove itself. and time will allow tt to happen. the decision cannot be changed, n we hav to learn to adapt, coz u noe, even if u dun think so, everything is actly for the best...

pls stop it. stop adding more n more pressure on me. i'm not some perfect person who can be damn bloody good in every single thing that i do. there's such thing as give and take. if u want me to do damn bloody well for one thing, at least a little sacrifice hav to be made on the other thing. it's already difficult enough to maitain and now i'm expected to improve like a lot. n what with what is going to come next, i dunno how am i supposed to do tt. stop thinking tt i'm some kind of genius who can do everything so easily. yah maybe i should hav done juz a little worse last time. haha. and of all things, why must u blame that. i juz cannot stand it when u do tt. coz.. yah. blame me, blame anything but that ok... u keep challenging me and there's nth wrong with tt, but how do u expect me to take up so many challenges at one time n then like accomplish each challenge wonderfully. arrr please dun say anymore.. i'm trying already. ok maybe not my best yet, but i'm trying. n maybe i'll keep my best for later or smth else. yah yah i noe u're not satisfied but u wont noe unless u experience it urself. okok fine...

one person's actions or words can hav such a great impact on so many people.

haha cant scare me...

|| flatburger || flew at 11:51 AM